It's only natural to have second thoughts about bit life changes right? Well, having second thoughts and all is fine but it doesn't change the fact that I'm having a baby within the next few days. And I am excited but this morning, while procrastinating homework of course, I was looking through old pictures on my computer and had some of the following thoughts.
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| High School- Fall 05 |
Will I ever be that skinny again? Sometimes I think I'm going to have pregnancy belly the rest of my life. I can't fathom that in a few weeks it will no longer filled with a baby.And a few months after that I'm going to have to start working out again :0! But the truth is I will probably never be as skinny as I was in the above picture; it was taken when I was working out like 3 hours a day and on a super strict diet and frankly I'm not going to do that again.
Will I ever have my hair like that again. I know this sounds silly and doesn't seem to have anything to do with pregnancy but it does. For most of my teen and adult life my hair has varied between the lengths in the two pictures above. The last year or so I've been growing it out and it is now very long
for me. I've been wanting to cut it short but haven't wanted to before the baby comes because I want to have the easy ponytail option for the first few months of her life. But if I cut it short after she is born I'm getting 'the mom' hair cut. I know my thinking like this is ridiculous but it is how my brain works.
Now these first two worries shouldn't really be worries at all. Even after I have a kid I still have full control over my body and my hair. (Come to think of it I don't have much control over my body during birth but I get it back after right?) But a more realistic thought I was having as looking through old pictures was 'will I ever be that free again'. Brett and I have been together for going on four years now and we've always been able to pick up and go when we felt like it. We've been on some pretty fun trips together...
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| Zion National Park- May09 |
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| Marshall Reunion- July 08 |
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| Pink Coral Sand Dunes State Park - May 09 |
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| 4-wheeler trip with Mark and Maddie -July 09 |
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| Mt. Borah- Sept. 09 |
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| Table Mountain Hike with Sarah, Mark, and Sean- July 07 |
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| Arizona- May 10 |
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| Grand Canyon-May 10 |
I guess the short of long of it is my life is about to change. And I know that while I treasure all the memories of the last 4 years with Brett, we're about to start making more memories. Now if only labor would start so I could get on with it...
3 comments:
It's normal to feel this way. Motherhood has it's trade offs that's for sure otherwise we would never trade in our skinny jeans for the mom jeans. It's all worth it when you feel the true happiness that being a mom to something feels. You will do great, and I am like a hundred percent sure you will bounce right back to being fabulous:)
I think Amber has a great point. I cannot wait to see pictures of your baby :) Love and best wishes for an easy delivery <3
I am so excited for you to experience the joys of your own little one. Some things will never be the same again, but many things will be much better!
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