Waiting and waiting and ...

My due date is now past and still no baby. I did however end up cutting off my hair, evidently it is all the rage these days since I'm not the only one who has recently.

40 weeks +1 day

I keep taking pictures hoping it will be the "this is mommy the day you were born" picture. I'm still hopeful when I go to sleep that I'll wake up in labor instead of just having to use the bathroom.

Second Thoughts

It's only natural to have second thoughts about bit life changes right? Well, having second thoughts and all is fine but it doesn't change the fact that I'm having a baby within the next few days. And I am excited but this morning, while procrastinating homework of course, I was looking through old pictures on my computer and had some of the following thoughts.

High School- Fall 05

Will I ever be that skinny again? Sometimes I think I'm going to have pregnancy belly the rest of my life. I can't fathom that in a few weeks it will no longer filled with a baby.And a few months after that I'm going to have to start working out again :0! But the truth is I will probably never be as skinny as I was in the above picture; it was taken when I was working out like 3 hours a day and on a super strict diet and frankly I'm not going to do that again.

Will I ever have my hair like that again. I know this sounds silly and doesn't seem to have anything to do with pregnancy but it does. For most of my teen and adult life my hair has varied between the lengths in the two pictures above. The last year or so I've been growing it out and it is now very long for me. I've been wanting to cut it short but haven't wanted to before the baby comes because I want to have the easy ponytail option for the first few months of her life. But if I cut it short after she is born I'm getting 'the mom' hair cut. I know my thinking like this is ridiculous but it is how my brain works.

Now these first two worries shouldn't really be worries at all. Even after I have a kid I still have full control over my body and my hair. (Come to think of it I don't have much control over my body during birth but I get it back after right?) But a more realistic thought I was having as looking through old pictures was 'will I ever be that free again'. Brett and I have been together for going on four years now and we've always been able to pick up and go when we felt like it. We've been on some pretty fun trips together...

Zion National Park- May09

Marshall Reunion- July 08

Pink Coral Sand Dunes State Park - May 09

4-wheeler trip with Mark and Maddie -July 09

Mt. Borah- Sept. 09

Table Mountain Hike with Sarah, Mark, and Sean- July 07

Arizona- May 10

Grand Canyon-May 10

 I guess the short of long of it is my life is about to change. And I know that while I treasure all the memories of the last 4 years with Brett, we're about to start making more memories. Now if only labor would start so I could get on with it...

Besides being pregnant...

I realize that by looking at my blog the last while you would think the only thing I do is be pregnant. We'll actually being pregnant only gets to occupy a little bit of my time. This semester so far has been busy but not nearly as busy as last semester. I'm taking two classes, Nuclear Criticality Safety 1 and Masters Research and Thesis Credit. I just finished my midterm for Crit. Safety 1 and set it in. Now I can start stressing about the final presentation. Work has been very busy though. My benchmark is being presented at a meeting in May in Paris (I won't be going this year) and so I'm in a bit of a time crunch to get it done. The benchmarks go out for distribution by the 24th so I have to have it done and reviewed before then. I should be able to do it but I'll be working some long hours the next few days (well longer than my normal 5-6 hours a day). Today my boss asked me when I was due. I told him the 28th and he asked me what month. He was a bit shocked when I told him this month. In other exciting news... I'm on the internet. Well, duh I'm on the internet! I have a blog and a facebook afterall. But professionally I am on the net. If you google my name and osti the first result is my benchmark from last year. I'm published.. how about that. (I think this has actually been on the internet for a while but I just realized it the other day.) Okay I know talking about pregnancy is a lot more fun and universal so I'll probably go back to that for future posts.

35 and 36 weeks

35 weeks

37 weeks